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Wednesday, December 30, 2015



December 30, 2015

Hello.

Today has just been a lot of sitting around and thinking. So of course I decided to put my thoughts into words and write. I thought about putting a camera on and making a video, but we all know how good I am at that. I've been having strange dreams lately and I am trying to decipher the cause. I thought it was too much dairy before bed, then I realized I don't really like dairy and don't eat or drink it.


I then thought it was because I stay up too late watching internet videos and being unproductive. Then there is the fact that I watch Netflix 24/7. Then I finally realized it was because I daydream too much and am always thinking about the most random situations and it is reappearing in my dreams. 

Sometimes they are scary and other times they are just a jumbled mess. I guess I will just have to find something to fill my days...yeah like that'll happen. How is it two days away from 2016. I feel like I was just going into year 9 and now I realized that was four years ago...what? It feels so strange to think that I was ten when I moved to California and now eight years later I am trying to figure out where to go next. I am really considering going up north to Washington or Canada, haven't decided yet.

I have also been thinking about this blog lately as well. I never cared how many people were actually reading it and I still don't. I just don't know if I am really writing what I want, you know? In February, this blog will be two years old and it's weird. This is just a platform for me to ramble and post memories and have fun, but I want to do something more with it. 

I am still writing my book, but decided that I wanted to take my time with it, rather then worry about a time deadline. It's my first book and I want to make it good. I just need the discipline to make it. When it comes to my job, I realize that I love it, but I don't know how long I can do it. I feel as if I am walking on thin ice every time I walk into the building and that is never a good thing. I know I will eventually need a more income job, but that is going to be so difficult. 

Turns out I am going to be going to therapy in the new year. This was my idea and I know I need it, but I am absolutely petrified. I am so scared to talk about what is going on in my head and about my past, but I have a feeling I will become a stronger and happier person. Are you in therapy? I hope it's going well.

Finally, I just wanted to say that the internet is a vast place and if you want to be apart of it, do it. Make videos, make a blog, do whatever you want! 

Love, Haley

3 comments:

  1. Thank you for sharing, the way you write is so soothing that I can read it over and over again :) Do you want to support each other’s blog by following each other?:) Please let me know if you’s like to so I can follow you right back x

    kisses
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    1. Definitely! I just looked at your blog and I love it. You seem to have put a lot of effort into it and I applaud you for that! <3

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  2. Great Post!
    Would you like to support each other by follow on GFC & G+?
    Please Let me know if you follow me. I’m also follow back <<

    Love xx
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